What Is This Site About?

Origin

The Nearly On Red YouTube Channel published its first video on August 8, 2017, at 8:08:17 in the morning.

It’s not there anymore, by the way.  It does not match the eventual purpose the channel creator embraced.  But we’ll get to that.

The channel arose from a desire for analysis of currently-airing anime that went beyond impressions and reactions and surface-level opinions.  YouTube was awash in such content, but it also had a wealth of critical analysis and structured studies of past series. Trying to find a way to marry the two schools of videos was the unfocused notion upon which the channel was founded.  While there are a host of other types of content that were always intended by the channel creator (a guy named Th8a, with an 8), this was the original mission Nearly On Red was created to pursue.

And it failed almost immediately.

In order to pick a series well-suited to analysis, it was insufficient to rely on popularity or audience anticipation or even other anime journalists.  To choose the best option for critique, the critic should be the one who does the choosing, and this meant watching every single premiere episode in a season.  There are usually 40+ such premieres every 3 months (as anime seasons are actual seasons, 4 per year). While the viewing of so many first episodes is not an overwhelming burden, there was an accompanying hope to create a video each season which gave a roughly-sixty-second rundown of each premiere.  This was also a type of content that didn’t exist — a look at the complete lineup in a single video from a single source. It turns out there is a reason for this.

The first season for which Nearly On Red produced content was the Summer 2017 season, which begins on or around July 1st.  A look at the first line in this section will reveal the problem: that first video was August 8th, almost 6 weeks after the season began, very nearly the halfway point.  Even for an experienced content-creator, the viewing, critiquing, scripting, recording, and editing necessary to cover 40ish episodes in a single video is…well, it’s a tall order.  For a complete neophyte, it was far too much to bite off. Thus when actual analysis began on the first series (Made in Abyss), it was so far behind the broadcast that the basic purpose of analyzing something current was unmet out of the gate.  It would probably have been wiser to abandon the overview video when it was clear it interfered with the main goal, or at the least not begin a series halfway into its broadcast. Th8a did not possess such wisdom at the time.

Actually, we need to back up.  The August 8th compilation video was the first one published, but it was not the first one attempted.  In fact, Th8a had tried to do the very same thing for the season before, the Spring 2017 anime lineup. 100 or so hours into that video he abandoned it, as it was still incomplete and it was nearly 2 months into the season.  In light of this failure, Th8a found it untenable to similarly give up on the Summer 2017 version despite its own set of delays. There was a desire to prove to himself that he could actually complete something and set it loose into the world.  He did not wish to add another entry to the list of failed videos. Failed videos  plural that is — because actually…

Actually, we need to back up even further.  The first content intended for the channel was a look at the complete canon of the Ghost in the Shell anime: all the series and movies, one episode or movie per video.  The idea was to walk through the entire filmography in publication order, leading up to the March 31st premiere of the live-action Ghost in the Shell movie. Had the movie been well-received, the various anime properties would likely see a commensurate bump in audience interest and accompanying bumps in YouTube searches for Ghost in the Shell content.  

Trying to do so many videos in so little time was doomed from the start, but we don’t know what we don’t know.  Th8a was even less wise in those days. The plan then changed to at least taking a thorough look at the original 1995 movie and then at the live-action version.  However, production for that first analysis ran longer than anticipated, and before Th8a had covered even half of the movie he already had a 2-hour video on his hands.  He didn’t believe anyone would be willing to sit through a 4-hour YouTube video analyzing a single work. A 4-hour video seemed too crazy to try. Instead, he turned to at least looking at the new live-action film.  He went to both Thursday night pre-screenings, and then stayed up all night attempting to give something approximating “valuable insight.” It is best for us all that this never saw the light of day. Once the backlash against the adaptation was apparent, it seemed a poor use of time to try to rescue the analysis, especially as the new Spring 2017 season had begun.  Th8a thus abandoned the last attempt to do something Ghost in the Shell-related, and turned his attention to the much more important Spring 2017 compilation video.

Which — as we know now — was also eventually abandoned.

That brings us back to the Summer season, where Th8a finally put out a first analysis of an ongoing series, a look at Episode 1 of Made in Abyss.  Seven weeks too late, but at least it was finally begun. There was no hope of finishing the series before the Fall 2017 season commenced, but he would do what he could in the meantime, and figure out his best course of action when October came around.  Certainly he was more experienced now, and was unlikely to make similar mistakes.

When the Fall 2017 season began, Th8a decided to make similar mistakes.

He once again tried to make a sixty-second compilation video of every new series, again choosing one to analyze in an ongoing manner.  Shocking no one except him, this also took many weeks to create, stretching well into the Fall season. This of course meant that the new choice (Land of the Lustrous) would start behind schedule just as surely as Made in Abyss did…but with the added bonus that he hadn’t finished those videos, either. Now the two series each interfered with the other, and not only would he be unable to complete the Fall choice of Land of the Lustrous before the Winter season, he also wouldn’t be able to finish Made in Abyss.

Th8a thus began 2017 believing he would be putting out content all year, completing a look at the Ghost in the Shell canon, analyzing the premiere episodes of the Spring, Summer, and Fall seasons, and further analyzing 3 new series to completion.  He ended the year having completed not even a single series.

In light of this gulf between expectation and reality, Th8a changed things up for Winter 2018 season.  It was time to see whether he even could do what he originally intended: thorough analysis of current content.  He abandoned all notion of doing another compilation video, and further put Made in Abyss and Land of the Lustrous on hold.  Instead he chose a new series for Winter 2018, in hopes that with no other distractions he could manage the week-to-week videos initially envisioned.  The series chosen was Darling in the Franxx, a two-cours show that would run for the next 6 months. With no other distractions (and very little sleep), Th8a managed to stay on top of analyses for each new episode with only a couple slip-ups.  When that series wrapped up in July, Th8a finally accomplished the original goal: a complete episode-by-episode analysis of an ongoing series. This, then, was the only acceptable proof that he could do what he hoped. The channel concept was safe, and so was his dedication to it.

Emboldened by finally succeeding, Th8a returned to work on Made in Abyss, while also introducing new variations on analysis formats over the next two seasons.  Despite taking on multiple shows in both of those seasons, he managed to stay current week-to-week while also whittling down the remaining Made in Abyss backlog.  He ended 2018 having stayed on-schedule for the entire year, a complete reversal of 2017.

And then in January 2019, he finished Made in Abyss.  The finale video ended up being 4 hours long. This, even though a 4-hour video seemed too crazy to try.

It’s one of his most-viewed videos.

About Th8a

This channel and everything related to it are the constant hobby of a guy who calls himself ‘Th8a,’ pronounced like the Greek letter ‘Theta.’  A stylized version of that letter also serves as the channel’s primary icon.  Th8a also has a symbol that represents him as a character, just to make things as confusing as possible.

The Th8a Symbol

The key part of that sentence is that Th8a is a character.  He is played by [REDACTED], whom he refers to as his ‘alter-ego.’   The alter-ego is the one actually writing this About page, as Th8a is far too uncomfortable talking about himself.  I hope you’ll forgive him this quirk and blame me instead. I’m the actual weird one.

Th8a, then, is basically the part of me that loves and always has loved storytelling.  The Nearly On Red channel is a way to give him a voice, and the Th8a persona creates a separation between the art and the artist, a separation critical to how he understands art.  Creating a symbol to represent him distinct from the symbol which represents his platform echoes this divide. Both symbols have, well, symbolic meaning, just as the channel and character names do…but that’s a tale for another time.  

Nearly On Red

The Channel Symbol

While Th8a and I share a lot of qualities, we live separate lives.  I must go through all the mundane daily rituals of adulthood: laundry, bills, traffic, discouraging numbers on the bathroom scale–all the unremarkable, forgettable moments that comprise the bulk of existence.  However, I get to leave these stretches of bland routine to play Th8a, to step into what is something of a different and more exciting life. Sound strange? Well, it is just like the process of experiencing a story, to briefly leave our lives and see things as a new character in a new place.  

I realize that’s very meta.  But I imagine I am not alone in thinking of my inner, private life as almost a separate thing from the person that others interact with day-to-day.  Life happens externally but is experienced internally, and we each have our own comfort level for how much of that internal life we share with anyone else.  I am almost pathologically a private person, not ever the kind who would want to put his face and voice and name out on the internet. Writing to you like this is fine, but that is as far as I’ll go.  To me, fame looks like misery; I would never want it.

And yet art is a shared experience.  It is a conversation between artist and audience, and between individual members of that audience.  It is incomplete and unsatisfactory kept wholly to one’s self. Th8a is thus how I eat my cake and yet still have it.  Very few people who know me also know that I play Th8a; certainly none of my co-workers do. With any luck, those of you reading this will only ever know Th8a rather than me.  Not only is this better for the sake of work-life balance, I imagine you would find me rather disappointing by comparison. Th8a gets to be an ideal, a concept that is refined and improved over time.  He gets to pick and choose which aspects of my life are helpful to share if it aids his work.

Despite this, we are not wholly different beings.  It is impossible to completely subdivide Th8a away into his own fully-realized person.  This, too, echoes the way that artists cannot be completely subdivided away from their art.  While Th8a and I both privilege Text rather than Context, this is a reminder (and admission) that one can never completely excise the influence an artist’s circumstances will have on any art produced.  This tension between ideal and reality weaves throughout all art, all analysis, and all audience experience. Intentionally playing a character who is yet so similar to myself makes it impossible for me to ever forget this inherent duality.  

You might find this all a bit pretentious and tedious.  You’re probably right.  I am usually more guilty of that than Th8a.  But the process of trying to make an ‘ideal’ out of him clarifies a lot of things for me as well, especially when it comes to how I approach art.  Even during the short tenure of this channel I have come to a place where I can better articulate what I believe about creators and creation and our part as the audience.  This has changed some of what Th8a and I do when we approach works, which is part of why that original first video (and the later compilation video) have been taken down.  They no longer match our purpose.  What is this purpose, then?  

Channel Purpose

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